It's not really a holiday, but I suppose when you're a Mama any getaway can be a holiday... And how my heart aches to leave my family for three nights...
They'll be home with grandma as of tomorrow while I travel to Harrisburg, PA for the Allume Conference; very close to my home.
Can I be honest?
Sometimes, I ask myself: Why in the world are you going to this conference?!?!
I'm not business savvy, and I don't have a huge desire to grow my blog, and my precious girls and husband! I'll miss them so much!
But this I have..
A passion for people.
People like me who are seeking joy in all things, who want to care for their families with passion, and purpose, and intentionality.
Women who maybe feel like there's no hope for them.. Their ugly places could never be reached by a Lovely God such as Yeshua.
Oh, but it can and it has and it will....
And then I remember a good fifteen years ago when my friend and I were invited to a marriage retreat with our then church, even though we were not married, not even close. And when we were leaving how the leader of the Women's Ministry was praying our last prayer before we boarded the vans to go back home. She was silent for a moment, and I became curious so I peeked.. Head bowed in prayer, I peeked... How my knees knocked a bit when I saw her approaching me; how I knew in my heart the Word that was coming. How I would perform all things saw there done by the leaders. How one day God would raise me up for His glory. And some other Words and books given to me because of "gifts" seen in me..
And how this may be the time?
And how I shrink back in humility... And how I'm thankful for purpose.
For all of the wretched brokenness can birth a calling in a grateful, willing vessel.. A calling by the Holy One, for the Holy One, to the Holy One.
My knees knock just a tad because, well, in my humble belief this could mean persecution. It could very well mean something I'm not prepared for.
But my knees come back to still... The enemy has already been defeated. It is done.
So friends, pray? Because prayer is sweet and draws Him near...
With So Much Love,